Dreams

Memory kills me in my dreams
Unable to find the space to sleep
In peace and ever-lasting harmony
Instead of fearful memory
So into blackness I sink
Drowning in my past mistakes
Feeling the oil spill down my throat
Lungs replacing air for dark dark fluid
And as my mind begins to falter
Falling to my knees in front of the red suit
Turning in a panic to the man who doesn't care
Saved at the last minute by the one who loves me
Only to realize I've drowned
And cannot be saved at all.

past views

Swimming in this red velvet high
Can't seem to bide my time
Feeling the heat begin to rise
Penetrating layers of my mind
Till all I can taste is wine
Wine and love and sex and lust
Despair and pain and fear and rage
Tumultuous and beautiful
Fearful and sad
Nothing, but memories
Of what could have been.
And what happened in times gone by