fantasy

The music wraps around me
Intoxicating and bittersweet
The warmth in your eyes
Draws me close
And so it goes
The soprano drones on
The pianist smacks the keys
The awed breathing
Of the spectators
Unbelievable! For them
To be so easily wowed
Reclining my head
Upon your chest
I close my eyes
And let the dream begin
A concert hall, an opera house
Germany, Austria, France, New York, Italy
And I'm the one they want to see.
To feel that joy, to let the music pour
Like a torrent from my body
Let the emotion unravel
Oh the utter ecstasy...
And to walk home
To a little rundown hovel
No money for bread or water
But content... save one thing
If only I could keep you in my arms.

aftermath

The dreams are worse
They won't stop - unceasing
Why can't I simply let go?
Why tell me things
I can no longer undo?
Why torture me,
With hopeless ifs and whens?

Today

Some days are slower than others. Today was one of those days. Some of the minutes felt slow I could feel them drag past my body like a flood of molasses dragging me though life. Today was not a bad day, merely a slow day.

meeper shneeper

meeper shneeper shneep shneep
meeep meep meep shneep

<3

Snow

The swirling little fluries
Decorate the Air
Floating slowly, floating quickly
Falling everywhere
The people panic
Some just stand still
All fall to mother nature's wrath.
But her temper tantrum
Invokes such wonder
And beauty it thus creates
So can we not help, but wonder
What are we doing here?

Paramore inspired.

pictures and memories
They all fly
Can't see the difference
From the truth and lies
Dreams become reality
Reality becomes a dreams
Just fall asleep now darling
You won't feel a thing.

Time goes bye
The depression will rise
We're all alone
In a room with padded walls
No one to talk to
No one to see
Just ourselves
So we pretend
That we aren't alone
And with the medication setting in
It ain't so bad....
It ain't so...

Can't seem to see the gray
Only in black and white
And as the leaves fall further
The ground swallows them whole
And so I try
To not sink in
But they catch me, kill me
I can't seem to do this anymore...

And Time goes bye
The depression will rise
We're all alone
In a room with padded walls
No one to talk to
No one to see
Just ourselves
So we pretend
That we aren't alone
And with the medication setting in
It ain't so bad....
It ain't so...

panic...

The air burns in my chest
Can't escape this pain in my breast
The tears roll down my face
My mind can't keep pace
Oh god I miss you so
Don't want to ever let you go
So why can't I keep back these tears?
And reign in these endless fears?
My mind paralizes my body
Keeps me taught and my breath fiery
And as I shake and cry out
In the end all I do is pout
For without a intention
I have hurt you by my mention